Intentando ubicarme...

Necesitaba poner en palabras lo que tengo ahorita... y ver si en algún lado estaba expresado de forma satisfactoria, ya que yo no lo he sabido definir...

Hope is a belief in a positive outcome related to events and circumstances in one's life. Hope implies a certain amount of despair, wanting, wishing, suffering or perseverance — i.e., believing that a better or positive outcome is possible even when there is some evidence to the contrary. ^[1]

Beyond the basic definition, usage of the term hope follows some basic patterns which distinguish its usage from related terms:

• To wish for something with the expectation of the wish being fulfilled. ^[2]
• Hopefulness is somewhat different from optimism in that hope is an emotional state, whereas optimism is a conclusion reached through a deliberate thought pattern that leads to a positive attitude. But hope and optimism both can be based in unrealistic belief or fantasy.

Necesito acotar -para decírmelo yo misma- que esto ni es irrealista, ni es fantasioso. Y que no estoy siendo optimista, precisamente para keep it real. I'll keep my head together. I'll get those keys, and i'll get the apartment. If not tomorrow, soon.

PD: No puedo hacer un post about hope sin escribir aquí la frase sobre esperanza que más me ha marcado en la vida

"Humph. Hope, it is the quintessential human delusion, simultaneously the source of your greatest strength, and your greatest weakness."

-whoever wrote The Architecht's script-